“Would you tell me, please, which way I ought to go from here?’ ‘That depends a good deal on where you want to get to,’ said the cat. ‘I don’t much care where –‘, said Alice. ‘Then it doesn’t much matter which way you go,’ said the cat. ‘-so long as I get SOMEWHERE,’ Alice added as an explanation. ‘Oh, you’re sure to do that,’ said the cat, ‘if you only walk long enough.” – Lewis Carroll
After we moved to Corvallis and I accepted the position at Oregon State University, the sale of our restaurant fell through and we were faced with choices.
“Shall I move back to Everett and try to salvage the restaurant?”, I asked Linda. “And give up on the position at Oregon State University? I don’t see that as a step forward.” “Well, unless we have another buyer within the next two months, we’ll be bankrupt”, I said. “Let it go. We started with nothing; we can start again.” And so we did. I borrowed $1000 from my mom to hire a bankruptcy attorney and within three months the restaurant and equipment were auctioned off. After pouring so much energy and time and love into our Irish café, it was emotionally draining to see it all collapse in failure. I was exhausted. Disheartened. Embarrassed and humiliated. I had always felt confident in myself and my ability and for the first time in my life I experienced what it felt like to fail. I was ashamed. I had made commitments to suppliers but was now welching on those financial promises.
Husbandry 